Dear Old Friend

   It’s been a while since I've seen you. It’s also been a very long time since we’ve seen each other in person. It’s been a very, very long time since we’ve actually talked with each other. I guess I just wanted you to know that I still miss you, even though it’s been a year now since I’ve last seen you. I nearly forgot about you once, when you weren’t around, but I never really have forgotten about you. When we were young, you wanted me to still remember you, and I've kept that promise. 

   Now, it seems that you’ve moved on. You’ve found someone who loves you. That’s great. I’m really happy for you, truly. I guess you’ve always had so many lovers before. They’ve all walked in and out of your life so many times before. I’m not even sure if you still remember any of them! I’m not one of them, I know. I’ve never walked into your life and I have never walked out of your life. I’m just the guy on the sidelines, watching other guys trying their luck with you. I’m not one of them. I’m just an old friend of yours, who has never forgotten about you, the one who still cares, misses and still loves you. 

   I’ve always wondered if you ever missed me before, especially during the holidays. I’ve always wondered if you ever think about me sometimes. Well, clearly, I still think of you from time to time. You were still my only one true crush. I’ve had crushes before you and after you, but none of them ever had that special something that you’ve always had. We were never together and sometimes I wished that we were. 

   I’m sorry if I was imperfect to you and I’m sorry for the times I’ve hurt you and made you cry. I truly am sorry. I just want you to know that I still remember those sweet and bittersweet memories that happened to the both of us. It’s been years now but I still remember everything that has happened. I will never forget any of it, and most importantly, I will never forget you. You’ve clearly found another, who seems to love you as much as I did. Unlike you, I haven’t found that someone. Maybe it’s due to the fact that I’m still in love with you, even though you’re with someone else now. 

   Sometimes, I just wish I could forget about you but I just can’t. You’re always there in my head, in my mind, in my heart. I once cried because of you. I’ve stopped crying now, and I’m still trying to hold back my tears. It sounds pathetic, I know, but I just can’t help it. I’m just so helpless when I remember you. I wonder where you are now. No matter where you are or what you are doing now, I wish you all the best and good luck. The best of luck to the both of you and may you two be happy together. We may never see each other ever again, but that’s alright. I’m just happy and grateful that you’ve always been a very good friend to me. Don’t worry about me, I’ll be alright. I just want you to know that I’m the one who has always loved you. Thank you... for the memories…